The Prodigal God...and Daughter

All my life I have pretty much felt abandoned by God. I've been through so many hardships and pain and loss, enough for a dozen people. I've often prayed to God, begging him to speak to me in some way, to help me understand why it is that I have to have such pain in my life. I had all but given up on having a speaking relationship with God, when he spoke to me in a dream. No some skeptics might not consider this dream I had to be related at all spiritually but I believe it was. I believe God was directly answering one of my prayers. And he was, and he did. It renewed my faith in Him, because for such a long time I considered Him to be distant, someone way out in the universe who only watched over us but didn't really care about what happened to us. But when he spoke to me, I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time. It was thrilling to know that God, cared about my feelings and actually cared enough about what I was feeling to answer a prayer directly. It has me wondering how many other prayers he had answered, but I was too stubborn or too busy to hear. It sheds new light on the words "answered prayer" that is for sure. However much I struggled over the last almost two years, and however far I walked away, God brought me back into His arms in the matter of one night, willing to trust him openly and give him control over my life. And things have been better ever since that night. Alot of good things have happened and are continuing to happen. Satan will not control this soul any longer. God has proved himself to me, and why it took so much, I'm not sure I will ever understand. Stubbornness, and a reliance on science...had me lost and wandering for such a long time. I couldn't understand why I couldn't fully trust God or allow him to have control. But it was me all along. It was myself preventing me from having the relationship with God that I had seen in others and always wanted. And now I will have it.