Consistency

One year from today, my friends, whom have been the only consistent thing in my life will be in France, then on to Chad...

I am so scared that I will never get to talk to them and I know I will rarely get to see them. This is so hard for me because they have been there for me since before I graduated high school and helped me through the last 7 years through everything that has happened. I am scared that this move will change the relationship that I have with them and I don't want that change. I want them to continue to feel like family. The clock is ticking and I only have so much time to spend with them and then they will be gone. I'm scared.

Identity Crisis

Okay, so here it is:
I have been having an identity crisis. All I've ever been is a daughter, sister, student, etc. Well now, with the name change and graduating in May, I feel like I am losing a big part of who I am. It is so hard to have to grow into being someone. I wish it was easy as getting dressed in the morning. I guess this is something I have always struggled with ever since I was a little kid. I got shuffled around alot, from foster home to foster home; even after being adopted I never considered myself to be a part of anything. I arrived at college determined to find a niche a place to call my own, friends to call my own. I found them. And now in less than a year, I will lose them again, or at least I feel like I will.