One year from today, my friends, whom have been the only consistent thing in my life will be in France, then on to Chad...
I am so scared that I will never get to talk to them and I know I will rarely get to see them. This is so hard for me because they have been there for me since before I graduated high school and helped me through the last 7 years through everything that has happened. I am scared that this move will change the relationship that I have with them and I don't want that change. I want them to continue to feel like family. The clock is ticking and I only have so much time to spend with them and then they will be gone. I'm scared.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Identity Crisis
Okay, so here it is:
I have been having an identity crisis. All I've ever been is a daughter, sister, student, etc. Well now, with the name change and graduating in May, I feel like I am losing a big part of who I am. It is so hard to have to grow into being someone. I wish it was easy as getting dressed in the morning. I guess this is something I have always struggled with ever since I was a little kid. I got shuffled around alot, from foster home to foster home; even after being adopted I never considered myself to be a part of anything. I arrived at college determined to find a niche a place to call my own, friends to call my own. I found them. And now in less than a year, I will lose them again, or at least I feel like I will.
I have been having an identity crisis. All I've ever been is a daughter, sister, student, etc. Well now, with the name change and graduating in May, I feel like I am losing a big part of who I am. It is so hard to have to grow into being someone. I wish it was easy as getting dressed in the morning. I guess this is something I have always struggled with ever since I was a little kid. I got shuffled around alot, from foster home to foster home; even after being adopted I never considered myself to be a part of anything. I arrived at college determined to find a niche a place to call my own, friends to call my own. I found them. And now in less than a year, I will lose them again, or at least I feel like I will.
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